Have a great year dudes and dudettes...

Well i was contemplating whether to write this post not but then i felt very lazy and like i didn't want to waste my time initially lar cause like i was booking in but after going to angie's house today i decided to write man.. Well the Chinese new year has come to a brand new start and being true "yellow" chinese, we have received many angbao's and like we must be feeling quite rich now.. Wuahaha.. But yet as we usher in the new year, i know that many have been hit by setbacks and all but it's all part of life and growing in god's word and all yeah people? Dun give up yeah.. Life's dealt bad cards but always count on god's strength to pull you through all difficulties and all...

Well firstly to the guys who came to my house.. Eh my dad didnt like purposely chase u all away lar.. But he knew u all had like other houses to go to and that like you all didnt want to go cause like there was nothing to do then he was like better chase them off.. So understand and be nice cause my dad's quite cool actually.. Ha well sorry for being a bad host but i was super tired but well hope u all enjoyed yourseves...

Well as i visited angie's house after her kind invitation to her net visitations for cny, i came to realise how much i missed u guys man.. Like u all as a whole, just sitting down together, talking nonsense, sharing views and all.. To the people who i always did that in the hols i sure miss u all man.. Like when i saw the whole bunch of them just talking nonsense, pigging away and watching the Incredibles, [ Jinguo, carmen, Kahwai, Desmond, Celine, Lydia, Muthu and angie and her lovely mum] I just felt like suddenly felt more like human more real and more alive lar.. I realised how much army made me like a robot.. A yes or no soldier.. A person with no emotions, no responses but obedience and i realised that i let God slip away in all the midst of all these.. I realised that my spiritual life had taken a beating and i din;t realised it even though i was down and low.. And it took like a chance occassion, a special invite by our dearly beloved ANGIE..

I realised that i took too much upon myself this year ever since the start of ns.. I took all the problems army threw at me and heaved it upon my shoulders instead of God's.. And when i saw the joy of my family of christ today.. It brought that little cheer back into my life.. It brought that little smile back onto my face.. It took away that IMMENSE DREAD of going back to camp, knowing that i had all these ppl like behind me lar.. So as God spoke to me immensly on my shortcomings for the year.. I felt the need to share and be enlightening for i always saw myself as a pastor.. (hoohoohoooo.. Of course i am joking but whatever...)

To special ppl:

Joceyln and Jeremy : A great thanks for being there towards the end of the year when i was down and out and i really needed somebody or somebodies or 2 BUSY BODIES there for me..

Nick, samuel : Thanks for lending your ears and like hearing me out and giving me advice.. Feel me bros? :)

Jinguo : Tough times dun last, tough man do. Hang in there bro like how u encouraged me too..

Carmen : You were a lifesaver and a great friend.. Thanks so much k for the late nights and all.. Your smile brings cheer into my life..

Xw : What more can i say or ask for.. An understanding friend that i thought i never find.. :P

Michelle : I know i may have left u out but i never ever forgot u k.. Always in my prayers.. :)

Gladys : Life's been a hard but you've been a great friend.. Be strong with god's faith.. :)

To all the rest : To some and all of the rest, not i dun want to be specific but like so many confirm ppl will ahte me for writing so long and these are like the few who were like really there for me then lar so thanks to you all k.. But the rest i love u all dearly, doesnt mean i didnt mention ur names u are forgotten.. Just pray for me lar.. Cause i think like my knee's in a bad shape and i dun want to be out of course so yeah...

Yes and plenty must be thinking lucien is getting super emotional and all because like he's in ns and he's losing it.. REst assured i am not.. I am perfectly the normal but of course SPECIAL guy that you all knew... Just that missed u all like mad and haven really spend time with u all so thus this super long post.. Forgive me for taking up space..

HAve a great year k guys.. Always in my thoughts and prayers.. Wuahaha.. I rock man..