its a rather long post but i just had to type all this out.
life's not that easy.
being dumped into a class where the rapping of vuglarities is like speaking english, the urge to lash back some of them impure words to others who have caused me frustration, anger and disapointment is strong. just last week i lost my temper in class and yelled at someone; then i also scolded my eraser (yes, my eraser.) some fishyfishy sentence when i couldnt find it. but being a temperemental person, when i had cooled down couple of minutes later, reflections told me i shoudnt had let anger get the better of me. its like, you know you dont mean it but yet out of frustrations, you utter those words thinking that that person dont deserve to be respected and considered and all. net last night, i was suddenly reminded about God's plans for me to be in my class when angie spoke of it. but what have i done so far? finding out that close friends of mine actually hated christianity had made me stop in my tracks. lost. just this morning, i really had the urge to whack my tuition teacher and tell her to shutup and stop telling me what should i do and what others have acheived blahblahblahblah. inside me, a voice repeats, "remember who you are, remember who you are". that stopped me from yelling at her and i had to do with just stabbing on my paper. thankgoodness.
i spent a few quiet minutes thinking alone later. God must have planned this teacher to be in my life, if not why am i stuck with her since primary school? if i couldnt respect her and appreciate what she has been trying to do to help me out, how am i going to cope with someone who has a greater authority over my life, like my parents. like God. i realised my week wasnt that great with all the temptations to speak unencouraging words to others. i didnt have to follow the ways of the world and say things i shouldnt say. jinlun offered me a good solution. life wasnt easy for him back at camp either and he coped by memorising verses on temptations. "No temptation has seized man except for what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it." 1 Cor 10:13. this was my way out and im sure going to work for "the escape" by learning this verse. thankyou jinlun for praying for me, i was rather comforted my the thought that i wasnt alone (: haa.
maybe this is what some of you are going through too. maybe not. but i just wanted to remind you that whatever happens, Jesus still loves you. this is part of His great plans for your life and through the trials of life, you will grow and learn. perhaps you are not satisfied with what you have, perhaps you are asking God why did all this happen. remember that He will not give you more than you can bear. "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. "Romans 8:28. trust in Him that he will provide alrights. dont give up and get emo and start getting angry at God. prayers do work you know. if there's really a need to vent your anger, perhaps you could beat up your pillow or turn your attention to other things(suggestions offered by joelL, it wasnt a strong enough escapee dose for me but it might just be for you :) )
life's not that hard either. just remember who you are :D
LOVE;
sharmian.
being dumped into a class where the rapping of vuglarities is like speaking english, the urge to lash back some of them impure words to others who have caused me frustration, anger and disapointment is strong. just last week i lost my temper in class and yelled at someone; then i also scolded my eraser (yes, my eraser.) some fishyfishy sentence when i couldnt find it. but being a temperemental person, when i had cooled down couple of minutes later, reflections told me i shoudnt had let anger get the better of me. its like, you know you dont mean it but yet out of frustrations, you utter those words thinking that that person dont deserve to be respected and considered and all. net last night, i was suddenly reminded about God's plans for me to be in my class when angie spoke of it. but what have i done so far? finding out that close friends of mine actually hated christianity had made me stop in my tracks. lost. just this morning, i really had the urge to whack my tuition teacher and tell her to shutup and stop telling me what should i do and what others have acheived blahblahblahblah. inside me, a voice repeats, "remember who you are, remember who you are". that stopped me from yelling at her and i had to do with just stabbing on my paper. thankgoodness.
i spent a few quiet minutes thinking alone later. God must have planned this teacher to be in my life, if not why am i stuck with her since primary school? if i couldnt respect her and appreciate what she has been trying to do to help me out, how am i going to cope with someone who has a greater authority over my life, like my parents. like God. i realised my week wasnt that great with all the temptations to speak unencouraging words to others. i didnt have to follow the ways of the world and say things i shouldnt say. jinlun offered me a good solution. life wasnt easy for him back at camp either and he coped by memorising verses on temptations. "No temptation has seized man except for what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it." 1 Cor 10:13. this was my way out and im sure going to work for "the escape" by learning this verse. thankyou jinlun for praying for me, i was rather comforted my the thought that i wasnt alone (: haa.
maybe this is what some of you are going through too. maybe not. but i just wanted to remind you that whatever happens, Jesus still loves you. this is part of His great plans for your life and through the trials of life, you will grow and learn. perhaps you are not satisfied with what you have, perhaps you are asking God why did all this happen. remember that He will not give you more than you can bear. "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. "Romans 8:28. trust in Him that he will provide alrights. dont give up and get emo and start getting angry at God. prayers do work you know. if there's really a need to vent your anger, perhaps you could beat up your pillow or turn your attention to other things(suggestions offered by joelL, it wasnt a strong enough escapee dose for me but it might just be for you :) )
life's not that hard either. just remember who you are :D
LOVE;
sharmian.
posted by Sharmian Diamond Cat at 2:44 PM
3 Comments:
shar! hang in there okay! the more "temptations" you go through, the stronger you'll emerge! like when you sharpen a pencil, it must go through a tough and painful process. but it becomes more useful than it was before. and with all these experiences, you too can help others who will go through simlliar situations in future! like how JL is encouraging you :) so rejoice in the face of adversities! you can do it! we're all behind you! just rmb tht it's not a sin to be angry. just dont like anger make you sin (:
ALL THE WAY GIRL! oh and it is through tough times that you find how BIG God is. and how so very dependant we are of him! lean on him yah! he'll carry you through it one. do it with his strength! draw from him daily! we'll be praying for you! we are family :) :) loveyou! MWACKS!
alamark. i enthu until type wrongly. hahaha. type too fast sia. i typed "let" as "like" in the eleventh line. paiseh. haha.
wahhhh. super long comment!
haha. anw, thanks reen(:
LOVE.sharmian.
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